I could no longer run from my issues, my behavior needed to change, I had to learn to control my thoughts...

I learned that I am not the only one that has these same obstacles nor do I ever have to surmount them alone.

Today is not about easy. Today is about change and starting over. Today I don't want to live a lie. Maybe I do belong here. I could be like everyone else here. I don't want to get away anymore.

...after four difficult and tumultuous years of the 24/7 party that is Gay San Francisco, I had reached the point where I lost touch with my ideals in life, love and work.

If I had not been honest about the challenges I have faced then those around me would not be in a position to support me in my efforts to change my life.

I believe to stay committed to my recovery it takes more than just trained professionals it takes friends, family, community and above all myself.